two and a half days aboard the Deradun express
The following paragraphs take place in no particular order of time
The Deradun express rattled into Sabzi Mandi station in New Delhi, announcing its arrival by emitting an ear drum piercing screech as it slammed on its rusty breaks and shuddered to a halt. The two and a half day journey aboard the dilapidated train had left me smelling like the inside of Gandhis dhoti after he completed the historic salt march.
Although Delhi was our departure point Rach and I decided to try to stay onboard for another six hours until the trains second from last stop in Haridwar (Rishikesh, down the road, is the starting point for the Valley of Flowers trek). We reckoned that if we got caught without a valid ticket we would be able to bribe the conductor to turn a blind eye. Well, if the first 55 hours hadn’t killed us I was quite optimistic We’d survive the last six….fuck me.
I glance over the side from aboard the top bunk, which is my bed. A baby is strung up in the corridor between my bunk and another in a small hammock, just beneath me. It smiles up at me as it swings happily from side to side. I smile back then roll over and try to go back to sleep.
The conductor pulls on my foot and asks for my ticket. Behind him people who have just boarded fight for a seat; Waking up sleeping families and demanding that they move. “It must be about 1.30 Am for fucks sake.”I have my berth number on my ticket so they leave me alone and I try to sleep again when someone throws my backpack onto me. I look pissed off and tell him to put it back under the seat from whence it came (where his family are furiously trying to squeeze in their possessions). The fans have stopped working I notice as I turn my back to the chaos and try to get some shuteye in the sweltering heat.
“How long had I been onboard? One day, a day and a half…have I lived on this train forever. It’s hard to tell.” I thought all this as I nervously edged my way towards the drop toilets. The fastidiously kept latrines I’d been savouring in my imagination bore little resemblance to the smelly hole I was to defecate into. It was hard to balance as the train wobbled and I crouched in the tiny cupboard shaped compartment. I was trying desperately not to slip and let my hands or trouser legs touch the warm puddle of fermented urine which swished up and down the floor. The railway tracks whizzing by underneath the toilet were an interesting distraction from the smell though, which was horrendous (I’ve actually grown quite accustomed to the grime but feel the need to depict the scene in all its gory detail just the same).
Afterwards I washed my hands in the blocked up sink full of red paan spit and returned to my carriage where, it appeared, Rachael was having her makeup done by three cute Indian girls. In their youthful ignorance they’d managed to make the normally beautiful Rachael look like a transvestite.
This would be an appropriate moment to digress a little. It was early the day before, I think (The days had just been one big blur….What day is it even??)
I’d just wolfed down my meagre breakfast of spicy chickpeas and puffed rice in a paper cone when I noticed, a little further up the carriage, some young men been accosted by, what appeared to be, two transvestites begging for money. I saw the two wenches lustfully sprawling over some younger fellows who were recoiling in horror. They couldn’t throw their rupees at them quick enough, poor chaps. One of them approached me, resplendently attired in a gold and red sari, his hairy paunch protruding out from under a drape of cloth.
“Give me twenty rupees,” He rudely demanded, sticking out an expectant hand and fluttering his eyelashes. Everyone was staring at me and I felt like giving him the money just for an easy life. It’s hard being a man of principle though and I cannot stomach rudeness.
“Naheen,” I told him bluntly. He reached forward and brushed my curly locks away from my eyes expecting me to flinch. I batted his hand away. “Give it a rest mate,” I told him. I then looked hard into his eyes, piecing his soul a little, showing him that his flamboyant display wasn’t unnerving me one little bit.
“Whats your name?” I asked him.
“I’m a gay, ” He said.
“That’s nothing to be ashamed of brother,” I told him.
“Give me 10 rupees,” He demanded in a put on girly voice.
“I know lots of gay people and I don’t have to give them money for being gay.”
I’d heard mentioned off my Indian housemates of homosexuals who ply their trade in this way, intimidating easily embarrassed young men into giving away their money. It’s sad that in such an accepting country homosexuality in between men is still illegal (‘carnal intercourse against the course of nature’ as it is legally termed). To be public about ones sexuality can leave a man disowned by his family and outcast by society, thus the alcohol abuse and need to beg for a living.
I smelt alcohol on his breath as soon as he’d stated to converse with me. ” You want me to give you money to drink?” I asked him. He glared back. “You want beer money? I don’t drink. Why should I give you money to?”
He touched my leg. I let him and smiled calmly back looking like I was maybe beginning to enjoy it. He was getting frustrated with his failing efforts to intimidate me so tried a different tack. “Dont make me fight!” He suddenly said in a more threatening manner (or at least as threatening as a podgy man in a sari can be). I blankly stared back.
“I wouldn’t do if I were you mate.”
The train hasn’t a catering carraige. Everytime we stop at a station Rach and I have to buy whatever is thrust through the windows by eager venders. The snacks are neither delicious or nutritious but go down all the same. I’m regretting leaving my bag of dates in the carriage next door, where Rach and I watched Bollywood film last night, on someones laptop, with a large gang of excitable youths.
So, four hours to go. I wiped the grime from my forehead upon the back of my hand and waited for the conductor to ask me for my non-existent ticket to the last stop. Just as I was about to pull out a hundred rupee note to attempt a bribe, a fellow train passenger showed the conductor the ticket he held for himself, his mother and brother. The conductor grunted and walked on up the carriage. “Thanks for that Naveen,” I told Him. He wobbled his head to say it was not a problem. We had got chatting to Naveen earlier on in the day. Him and his family were traveling on to Haridwar to sprinkle his recently deceased fathers ashes into the Ganges ( A holy river that can cleanse ones sins in life, even after death). As his father was a good, kind man Naveen had taken it upon himself to be a better person to honour him. He not only helped Rach and I out with the ticket but also bought us lots of snacks and chai, for which I am eternally grateful. The last leg of the long, tiring journey was by far the easiest thanks to him.
In Haridwar we said our goodbyes and finally got off the train, stepping into a station full of sleeping families and the occasional red faced monkey. Rach and I tiredly stumbled along to the bus station around the corner. Having both been here before we soon found ourselves aboard a bus which would, hopefully, arrive at Rishikesh within the hour.
I ditched my bag in the room (with a splendid balcony view of the surrounding hills) and headed down to the restaurant to wolf down a chow mein. I apologised to the waiter for my smell and dishevelled appearance. After a quick lunch I ordered a couple of cinnamon rolls and some cold fantas to take upstairs to enjoy in the bath.
The bath had seemed like a God send after such a long journey. It wasnt. I should have known better being in India and all. The hot water didn’t work. Rach laughed at me and told me I looked like a street urchin from a Dickens novel, I was so covered in grease and dirt. I peeled the grimy T-shirt off my back, grabbed a cinnamon roll and stepped into the icy cold shower to give myself a right good going over.